I keep not updating this blog. I haven’t mentioned yet that I’m back on NutriSystem which I did about a year ago for a couple of months. I’ve been on it, um…four days? Five? I’ve lost a couple of pounds. Today though I had Ben & Jerry’s ice cream because it was my last day with my current employer so my supervisor took me out. It was planned, so it’s okay.

So I’ve been hearing about the new Alli pill - I heard about it first from my wife and then again on NPR this morning. It’s apparently an FDA-approved weight loss drug, the first over the counter one they have approved. Of course it probably helps that the prescription version, Xenical, was already approved. Alli is going on sale tomorrow and I’ve been thinking about getting it…you are supposed to talk to your doctor first but I pretty much never do that with weight loss stuff, of course. My wife said that she is going to get it tomorrow and I asked her to pick some up for me. She mentioned that you can’t eat more than 15g of fat with a meal when you’re taking this, but I don’t usually eat high-fat meals anyway. So I’m going to give it a try, who knows if it will help any…we shall see!

Why did I just eat that piece of pizza? I didn’t even really like it. I haven’t had any work food in a long time either. Sigh.

Somebody on SparkPeople asked what our top two reasons are for weight loss. I said:

1. So I can be happier about the way I look. I think all I need for this is to get rid of my tummy. I’m happy with the rest of myself, but I want the tummy to be gone.

2. So I can be more fit. Right now I get out of breath climbing a couple of flights of stairs. I think I need to do more cardio for this…but I hate cardio!

I realized that I don’t need to be super-skinny, I just want to get rid of my tummy. The rest of me is fine!

According to SparkPeople, people tend to overestimate how much they are eating, so we shouldn’t just guess at portion sizes. I guess that’s the great downfall then. It is so annoying to determine if an apple is large or small, whether a bowl of cereal is three-quarters of a cup or a whole cup. God, I’m tired right now though.

I just got on the scale for the first time post-vacation and I was 179. Holy shit. I was about 167 before vacation. I have to buckle down and get back to that. I know I’m supposed to be being happy with myself, but I’m not happy at 179.

Just wanted to let everybody know that I am back from vacation! I am slowly posting my pictures, fortunately I have the whole weekend to put them up…see you soon!

Once again I have consumed about 400 calories as a “midnight snack.” I do this because I’m an insomniac, and all those yummy carbs help me fall asleep fast. But I hate this! I told my doctor about it and she put me on Rozerem, but it didn’t work at all so when I saw her today I declined a refill. (She says most of her patients don’t have good results with it.) But I neglected to get anything to replace it, and so I’m still eating a whole extra meal before bed. This has to stop!!

Oh, I got rid of the ticker on my SparkPeople profile. It was just depressing me, and that’s not what it’s about. It’s about living healthy and loving myself. Screw the numbers!

WHY did I buy an enormous thing of ice cream? And then proceed to eat a bunch? I should know better…only get ice cream in LITTLE packages!